The ditch: observations on recovery

In my last blog, I talked about going through a rough time. I also told you how I had picked up the pieces and had managed to crawl out of the ditch I created for myself. Today I want to give you an update on that. I’ll be honest: it’s not easy. I came from this wonderfully clean and detoxed state, physically and emotionally. I had no longing for sugar or flour at all. And suddenly, my sabotaging part managed to take over and mess it up again.


What happens when I get lost in the ditch

What often happens when I am in the ditch, my old thought patterns come up, and suddenly wanting to lose weight becomes a huge priority again. Even though I know that losing some more weight would be wise, I do not choose to focus on that – just because the weight loss mindset is not the mindset that is healthy for me right now.

It quickly becomes obsessive because there used to be a lot of anxiety hidden under that mindset. Only recently, I became aware of how much fear there is, and I fully understood how important it is to deal with that. Going back to that state is not going to provide me with happiness. I choose joy over weight loss.

Losing habits in the ditch

Looking back, I saw that I had dropped all happiness building habits over the last few months since Apil. At first, when COVID-19 hit us, I did an excellent job. I worked at home and started the day with all kinds of healthy habits like a walk and meditation, but at some point, I dropped off. Soon I began to feel tired and unmotivated. I wished I didn’t need those feelings to find out that I hadn’t walked for weeks,  had replaced water consumption with coffee, and was short on sleep.

Last Monday, during my first walk since I decided to reinstall the happiness building habits, I thought about how we use the discussion about our weight to prevent talking about the hole in our energy body. For some reason, we feel less than others, critique our mistakes, make jokes about ourselves that are not funny, deny ourselves to be brilliant at what we love doing,  or let others rule our life. We cope with the inner struggle by filling it up with our preferred substance or activity ( food, alcohol, overwork, drugs, running, gambling, sex, or whatever). But we never fill the hole that is there.

No matter how you try to fill it, it is not about food, alcohol, work, drugs, running, gambling, or sex. It is the physical, emotional, mental, and often spiritual nutrition that we lack.

Coping in the ditch

In the case of food addiction or binge eating, we know that there are no healthy nutrients in the stuff we use. I’ve never heard of someone who coped with life by eating broccoli.

What we lack are healthy, self-care habits, healthy thought patterns, compassion, and some spiritual practices. What we do instead is ruining the physical, emotional, mental, or spiritual balance even more. Therefore, I dare to say that people who struggle with food addiction (or any other excess illness), are not addicted to food but to feeling not good enough and making it even worse for themselves.

It is for that reason that I always say that food addiction or binge eating recovery is not, and will never be about the nutritional program you follow. Personally, I feel good on a no sugar and flour plan because these substances have a direct effect on my emotional balance and how much physical pain I have. As a nutritionist, I also know that you do not need sugar and flour in your diet. It can be easily replaced nutritionally.

What the ditch is really about

It is the addiction to thinking you’re not enough, telling yourself you’re not doing things right or that it will never work that is the real addiction. If we’d believe in ourselves, life would be so different. This not only goes for people with a substance or habit addiction but all people. We all need to work on feeling not good enough – it is a global illness. Especially now that there is so much hurt, anger, and struggle around on. You are good enough, so get it in your head once and for all. How many examples of the opposite (that you’re good enough) do you need?

Suddenly, I had this huge longing to be gentler with myself. I was so tired of being stern and nasty with myself. To quote Dr. Phil:

“How’s that working out for you?“

Well, crappy! It wears me out, leaving me with an urge to fill the ditch with food.

My life long energetic hole

I’ve had this hole all my life. I come from a family where it was good to work extremely hard, be productive, take action all the time, and create a better version of yourself, always. How that made you feel was of a lesser priority. I could not keep up with the expectations, and so I copied them to repeat them over and over to myself. I created a hole in my energy body, where I could always feel guilty for slumping.

My Future Self has no hole

Growing up with that hustle-and-go energy made it hard to adopt a loving and compassionate attitude. Recently, what helped me was to imagine the energy of my Future Self and imagine her actions, thought patterns, and feelings.

My Future Self does not have an energetic hole, nor does she need to fill any missing part of her with food because she feels whole and okay with herself. She is patient and talks nicely to herself, plans in a lot of me-time, and takes time to read a book or go for a walk. She agrees with Ralph Waldo Emerson when he says:

“It’s not the destination; it’s the journey.”

It means that I am allowed to enjoy my time while I’m on my journey. I can enjoy learning new habits or learn what works when things go wrong, and I end up in the ditch. My Future Self will lovingly sit with me while I spend my time in the ditch until it is time to get up and crawl out of the ditch to go back to the journey again. She will help me dust off my clothes and walks with me while I get back into the groove still. She will ask questions from curiosity instead of critique to find the lesson to learn.

Inviting divine energy into the void

She will tell me that it is okay if something goes wrong – like I would say to a child or my best friend. My Future Self is the Divine female energy in my life. To become more durable on the journey again, she will hook up with the Divine masculine energy to choose at least one aligned action to help me become stronger again. For me, that is almost always going on a walk. There is nothing as healing as walking for me.

In a way, she is as patient as you’d be with a child that needs to learn to ride a bicycle or needs to learn to write. I want to learn to listen to myself and to find which words have healing energy. Besides that, I want to keep on journaling, working with my tarot cards, and practicing excellent self-care to keep myself in working order. It is the only way.

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Is it worth it?

In one of the communities on recovery I’m in, someone asked if following a recovery program was all worth it. I mean, you need to do a lot to become free of food and experience harmony again in your life. Many people responded with a definite answer that it was very much worth it. Yes, it takes effort but the things it brought them made it all worth the effort.

Since I had had a horrid week two weeks in which I ate an overload of sugar and flour, I responded as follows:

“No, there are times I hate having to do all this stuff. Like this week especially – it sucks to the power of 3. I get angry and depressed. I wonder if I’ll ever “get it”. All the talk about serenity, peace, and surrender can really piss me off on days like these.
But this afternoon I talked to my ever so wise buddy, and she tells me to not be so awfully critical of myself and what I do or don’t do. I need to look at where I came from and wonder if I want to go back to that. Oh, and she also told me to go to my favorite coffee place (that I haven’t visited since everything closed and reopened), get a coffee and read a book. I mean, is that wise advice or not? 💖
After I had had my coffee I went to do my groceries, struck off everything on my list that was not compliant with the program I follow (it miraculously appeared on my shopping list and I had nothing to do with it 😇).
So, no, this week I hated every aspect of quitting binge eating and failed miserably at it. I was not a happy camper. But then I also know how it can be and on those moment I’d probably chimed in with all the other people responding to your message.”

I was probably able to make changes earlier, but I was simply unwilling to make the changes. The vacation was over and I went back to work 2 weeks ago. I had a difficult time adjusting my biological clock to getting up three hours earlier and concentrating on my work for a full day. It was full-blown PECS (Post Event Collapse Syndrome because I was upset the vacation was over).

worth it

I was not willing to write a weekly menu because “boring” and “I have all the time in the world to get a carrot when I want to.” To be honest, I had a lot of inner chatter going on that was not helpful. I also spent too much time with an almost empty fridge, low on vegetables and fruits, cut out daily walks, spent too much time on my phone, and not drinking enough water. Basically, I just didn’t give myself what I needed. All because I was mad at myself for something. Don’t ask me why I just was.

Is it worth it?

Recovery is not always worth it and sometimes it costs a lot of energy to do what is needed to feel good. Sometimes I am not willing to do the work. Until I do it again.

Now that I have everything set up again, it feels as if I can take care of myself again. The fridge is filled with vegetables and fruits, I just prepared my lunch for today and tomorrow, and I’ve gone for a walk this morning. Binge eating recovery is about practicing self-care, not about forcing yourself to just follow a fucking plan (JFTFP). It is about loving yourself, and sometimes I find it pretty hard to practice that.

Go gently in this world, when your relapse. It is the only way to make recovery worth the effort.

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How to recover from breaking your bright lines

Finding guidance when you keep breaking your bright lines in recovery. A (bright) line is one of the rules you follow when you recover from binge eating or food addiction. They are:

  • No sugar
  • No flour
  • Three nutritious meals a day
  • That meets the quantities rule.

It doesn’t matter whether or not they’ve broken a long streak of days or break them over and over. They all feel awful and want to give up. If this is you, read this article before you want to give up. Know that acting quickly is essential. The longer you procrastinate, the more chance you have to walk away from recovery altogether. Time is your friend.

First, and most important decision

The first thing to do is the best thing you can give yourself. Stay neutral. Don’t sweat it. Forget about getting angry at yourself or setting the intention to do things perfectly from now on. All of this is not going to help you. Look at your situation as if you were a scientist and look for data that you can log. Be factual and be quick to rezoom (in other words: to keep going as if you don’t know any better).

Crush it

The first thing you do is to throw away any food you have left. Throw it away, crush it, burn it, pour dishwashing soap on it. Do everything you can to prevent yourself from digging up the food from the trash can and eat it anyway.

Talk to your buddy

The second thing you do is to call or write your buddy or someone from your support group to tell them what has happened. No shame, no blame! Tell it factual: I broke my lines, and I feel awful. I’ve always told my buddy when I broke my lines. Okay, so I may have been a bit late sometimes, but in the end, I did. Not telling her felt worse than not telling. When you keep it a secret, you can’t change it. You hide in your deep dark stash of secrets.

Another reason to share is to force a breakthrough in the behavior you’ve always shown. To eat addictively, you often need a certain degree of isolation. So if you want to change, you need to create less opportunity to isolate yourself.

Journal about it

While not everybody likes journaling, you need to have a moment of contemplation after you have broken your bright lines. Journaling helps to dig deeper into your True Self to find out what happened and what you need to do to prevent the next binge. Whether or not you want to write it down is up to you, but I have always found it very helpful to write it because by writing it down, you integrate your solution better.

Preferably you start journaling when you notice the first food thoughts. I have done this for a long time (should implement it again), and it was super helpful. By the time I was done writing (sometimes it had taken over an hour to get all the crap out on paper), my urge to eat was gone. At some point, I even dared to challenge myself: “It is okay to binge until you have written in your journal.”

What triggers you?

When you start to take breaking your bright lines seriously, you will also find out how there are similarities in how your binges often start. Triggers often have a source somewhere inside of you: a thought, a feeling, some kind of behavior, social circle, or a health-related aspect. We think they come from without, but the opposite is real. Even when somebody does something that is triggering, it is still how you deal with the trigger. For me, being tired and physical pain triggers me. The moment I notice those aspects, I need to be more aware. I know this because I managed to look at my breaks as data instead of failures. Let’s look at the triggers:

  1. Thoughts

Did you have specific thoughts right before you gave in? Are they helpful thoughts, or are they sending you down the slippery slope? Is there are a voice inside, you saboteur, that tells you how okay it is right now to eat? Spoiler alert: it is not. How is that sabotaging part playing a role in this? Also, think about critiquing your program that can be a significant trigger.

  1. Feelings

Thoughts often come with certain feelings. How does a lack of willpower feel? Are you about to give up? How do you feel the minute before you get up and actively break your lines? Right before you give in. It’s not a great feeling, right?

  1. Behavior

Besides the thoughts and feelings, your behavior can also trigger a break. Think about how you may have certain friends that you keep meeting and who always bring food. Or think about how you may need to steer clear of the “goodie isle” in the supermarket, since seeing certain foods may be the same as buying them. But I’m also thinking about going to bed too late, working too hard, not drinking enough water, not planning your food, not having veggies in the fridge. There are so many things that can trigger you into giving up!

  1. Social

On the social level, you can look at how you may isolate yourself from others to create the opportunity to eat. At some point in my life, this caused me to be very lonely because all I did was eat, work, and sleep. You need uplifting people whom you can call when the temperature rises or who will listen to you when you come around from your food coma. It is for this reason that you need a recovery buddy. A buddy is on the same path as you. You support each other in making the right choices and to take your food plan commitment every day.

  1. Physical health

Lastly, ask yourself if you got triggered by something that happened in your physical health. Some people get very triggered when they are tired, struggle with specific physical ailments or pain. While I have seen many people overcome ailments like high blood pressure, high cholesterol, Diabetes type 2, inflammation of the joints, and more, cutting out sugar and flour is not the be-all and end-all to your solution. In recovery, they give you a specific nutritional plan, but that plan is not automatically suitable for your physical ailments. Always check with your doctor and never follow a plan blindly. For some people, like myself, a weight loss plan is not the right program when they come from a restrictive background. If you continuously binge because you have only been dieting, your body is trying to tell you that it is hungry. Why else would it create eating opportunities so sneakily?  Whatever nutritional plan you receive, check it against your body’s needs. If you cannot handle dairy, then don’t eat dairy. If you don’t eat pork, then don’t eat pork. Or apples, cheese, peanuts, or whatever. You are the boss, and you know exactly how your body reacts to certain foods.


Besides evaluating what went wrong, you need to forgive yourself. No, this is not some kind of soppy thing to do that is only suitable for fluffy-bunnies and unicorn-lovers. It is a necessary action, but many people forget to do it. Forgetting this can result in a build-up of resentment combined with feelings of guilt and shame that can become a reason to break your bright lines again and again. A straightforward forgiveness exercise is the Ho’oponopono where you connect with the situation that made you eat and then say the following sentences (preferably out loud):

  • I am sorry.
  • (Please) Forgive me.
  • Thank you.
  • I love you.

Read more about this technique and its background here.

Action Plan

To be honest, there is no rezoom or going back to whatever program without a plan. Sorry, but that’s the way it is. The least you can do is make sure that the next meal is planned and will tick all boxes on the list of bright meals, which means: no flour, no sugar, and a weighed meal so you cannot fall for the overeating addiction. Besides that, you need to make sure you have the quantities right, so make sure you have your food scale on the counter.

Besides that, go back to your big fat why, you ever started this recovery journey. Does it still feel right? I needed to change my big fat why at some point when I found out that it did not motivate me anymore. So, tell me: why are you on this journey? What drives you? Coming from that motivation, find out what is needed conditionally to help you move forward. Do you need to have a conversation with someone? Do you need to go to bed earlier? Or is there a certain food that you need to cut out of your plan? If you connect to your True Self, then you’ll know exactly what to do.

You’ll also want more self-care and an early night, because fighting food, giving in to food and overcoming a binge is hard work for your body, your mind, and soul.

Before you go to bed, make sure that your food for the next day is planned out and committed to your buddy. If you don’t have a buddy, commit to finding one as soon as possible. My recovery journey changed for the better after I found my buddy. Commit your food to your partner or a friend. The act of committing is not only telling them what you’re going to eat. It also entails that you tell them if you did.

Improving your bright lines

Understand that when you break your bright lines, you need to act fast. We all know that once we get stuck in the food, this can not only take a day, but it can derail us for a long time – if you’re unlucky for years. Don’t think that “you’ll rezoom tomorrow.” Rezoom today, right now. Do the work to prevent another break later in the day or tomorrow.

I understand how hard it can be to make the same old same old mistakes again. When you struggle with keeping your bright lines bright, then know that I am here for you to talk things through and get a new perspective on your situation. If possible we’ll create a plan that you can put in action. You’ll especially need this if creating the action is hard for you or if you find it hard to make changes. Find out what I can do for you and how you can work with me here.


The Fool ’s Recovery Journey

Tarot is an excellent tool in recovery. You can use the cards to understand why the phase you’re in. It can help you to understand your current struggle and give guidance for your next best step forward.
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I gained 35 pounds and I did not die (or: okay with being not okay)

So, there you have it. I gained weight: 35 pounds. Not just a little, but a shitload. Of course, this did not happen overnight, but I have looked the other way.

As with many things that hurt a lot – when you move through them, sometimes there are good things on the other side. Sometimes these things feel so good that you instantly forget that you gained a lot of weight. Read more


A Celtic Cross for Recovery of Food Addiction

Tarot cards are not new to me. I started reading them around 1997 or so. I have always been amazed by how accurate the readings have been in any life area I used them for. But to my surprise, I never thought of using them in my recovery. It is a mystery to me why I never combined the two. This week, while driving home from work, I thought about how useful the Celtic Cross could be in recovery from food addiction. To be honest, I have always hated that spread. For one, because it is huge – and huge spreads take a lot of time to write out.

When I interpret the cards it means that I study the card, the position it is in and its symbols that are on there. I make notes and think about what those symbols mean to me. Then I connect with my intuition what the card is trying to tell me. I often have at least two pages of notes in my journal per card before I write out a coherent interpretation. To do this, it takes time. Besides that, I have always found that this spread most of the time does not answer my question well enough. I often have other better suitable spreads to do that.

A variation on the Celtic Cross

But this week, in the car, I was thinking about the separate positions in the spread, and I thought of a change to make the Celtic Cross for Recovery – to make it more suitable for food addiction. I cannot deny that I could not wait to try it out on an imaginary client. To my surprise, it worked really well! If you want insight as well, then you can order it here.

Celtic Cross for Food Addiction

The positions and the cards I pulled

  1. Your current state of recovery – 8 of Wands
  2. The challenge you face right now – 10 of Swords
  3. The past/Where you come from – King of Pentacles
  4. The future/Your next step – 5 of Swords
  5. Your True Self – 2 of Pentacles
  6. Your Saboteur – 3 of Swords
  7. Advice/Next best action to take – 8 of Cups
  8. How your external situation influences your recovery – King of Cups
  9. Intention for the coming period – Five of Wands
  10. Outcome if you follow this path – Princess of Cups

Interpreting the Celtic Cross for Recovery

What I found when I pulled the cards for this reading how well certain positions can be read as one, which saved me a lot of time doing this Celtic Cross for Food Addiction. I think the last time I did this spread (which was ages ago), I was still in the “read card by card” phase. We’re talking 15 years ago when this happened.

There is nothing wrong with it, but the real value of reading the Celtic Cross for Recovery comes when you start to connect the cards in a spread.

When you look at this spread, you can also see that some of the cards combine mini-readings in itself. Look at the position of cards 3, 1, 4. Is that not just a past – present – future layout? It makes it so much easier to use storytelling in this tarot card reading. Heck, seeing this may have saved this layout for me. If this experiment would not have worked, I may have ignored the Celtic Cross for the rest of my life.

Besides that, there are the 5 – 1 – 6 mini-spread in this layout that tells me about the higher and lower brain workings in the process of recovery. It is fascinating.

For this reading, I worked with The Druid Craft Tarot Deck, one of the decks that has spent way too much time in my attic. But it is back!

1 and 2 – Current Situation and Its Challenges – 8 of Wands and 10 of Swords

Druid Craft Tarot 8 of Wands Druid Craft Tarot 10 of Swords

The current situation is symbolized by the 8 of Wands. It is a card of so much action which shows that you want to go for it, to change your current recovery journey into a successful one, but it is not easy. You aim far, but the challenge is real. Mistake after mistake happens, and it hurts. Why can’t you do better in this healing process? You clearly want it badly and you know which direction you need to aim for to get there, but time after time you fall back into old habits.

If you do not feel free right now means that this is the dark night you need to go through, but you’re not giving up. You keep aiming your wand but there are moments you feel defeated and all seems dark.

Know that a ten is also a number that symbolizes that the cycle is ending and that your chance for change will soon come. Until that moment, you can be impatient all you want, but maybe you just need to sit out this struggle and try to prevent more damage while you do until the time is right to redirect your focus.

3 and 4 – Past and Future – King of Pentacles and 5 of Swords

Druid Craft Tarot - King of Pentacles

Druid Craft Tarot - 5 of SwordsIn this Celtic Cross for recovery of food addiction I work with a different interpretation of the Pentacles. While Pentacles are often associated with work and money, I associate them with the body and the role of food in your life.

The King shows you about an aspect of your personality that played a role in your past, and I find it interesting how this King of Food J with his big belly, has enjoyed his meals thoroughly. Maybe he wants to be seen as a foodie because he knows a lot about food, how it nurtures you but also how to pair it or prepare it. But looking at his body, there was no real ending to the meal. It just went on and on and on. This King may not have struggled with binge eating, but with overeating, which can be just as damaging because it can go on all day. Everything on this day revolved around food.

The future, with you as the 8 of Wands (remember position 1) in the middle, is symbolized by the 5 of Swords. On this card, we see this figure who is clearly a trained warrior. He carries three swords and looks at two other swords on the ground. He keeps a foot on one of them.

In the background, you see another warrior walking away. He looks defeated, and although the guy in the front clearly is the victor, he has this strange look on his face as if he isn’t happy about the victory. As the next card in the deck is the 6 of Swords, which is about feeling success, we can almost expect that it is hard for you as well to recognize the moments of celebration in your recovery journey. It is so important to see those tiny yay moments instead of quickly moving on because it is not full recovery yet.

When we further look at the 5 of Swords, we can see a bird in the sky, which for me, stands for the freedom of food or obsession we are looking for. It shows that freedom will come in the future, but it still needs work on self-confidence and trust that you will move through the challenges you now face. It is not strange that you lack confidence because, in the past, you have had too many setbacks to build that trust confidently.

5 and 6 – The True Self and the Saboteur – 2 of Pentacles and 3 of Swords

Druid Craft Tarot - 2 of Pentacles

Druid Craft Tarot - 3 of SwordsHere we have another mini-reading in this otherwise big spread. Here we come to you in the middle (8 of Wands), surrounded by the True Self and the Saboteur. The True Self is also known as the Higher Self. It is the voice of wisdom that knows what you need and whispers silent words of encouragement when you need it. On the downside, there is the Saboteur that you know so well. It seduces you to eat foods that cause cravings and makes you restless when you try to prevent (over)eating. It is so easy to fall for the loud voice of this Lower Self. But where is that voice that is helpful after you have eaten stuff that you had better not eaten and feel crappy because of it? At that moment, there is the voice of the True or Higher Self, but it is so quiet, and you really need to tune in to it, which is hard to do.

The True Self knows all about the balance the 2 of Pentacles shows. You know balance is needed, now and in the future. But with those 8 Wands in your hands, you may forget to focus on the here and now instead of focusing on the future with those wands. I must admit that it is easier to focus on anything but the here and now. It is just too confronting.

As Pentacles stand for food and body, it is in this where balance is needed. Know that significant changes start with small decisions because this card indicates that even though the journey may seem hard, the changes you need to make are not difficult – it is the effect of many small changes repeated over and over, that can become a huge life change if you learn to overcome the struggle of letting yourself get defeated time and time again.

This card is the symbol of the Dance of Life, where you juggle everyday challenges great and small. It shows that you come much further with optimism than with devastation when you stumble.

Understand that life is not about constant stability, it is about juggling the challenges with joy.

7 – Your Next Best Step – 8 of Cups

Druid Craft Tarot - 8 of Cups

Your next best step is to say goodbye to old emotions. They have served their purpose, but now it is time to get up and move on. Give yourself the chance for a better life.

To make room for that better life, you need to pack up and go and leave the emotions behind and decide what is needed and choose the direction you want to go. Know that no course is good or bad. You never make the wrong decision. Even if you find out that it is not bringing you where you thought you were going, you redirect over and over until you get to where you want to be.

In the card, you see the man climb up a hill or steps. This may be hard, but it is always better than staying in the darkness where you are now. There is a tiny slither of a moon which guides your path. So decide what you are leaving behind and set up camp in a better place.

8 – How Your External Situation Influences Your Recovery – King of Cups

Druid Craft Tarot - King of Cups

Your surrounding gives you some damn good advice, but your own arrogance or resistance (one can show up as the other) can make you not hear the opinion and dispose of it. If the advice does not fit in your current frame of mind, then your brain may automatically dispose of it because you cannot just remember all the information you get. It can also be the Saboteur part of your personality that may take care of information that is too confronting for its existence.

If you have hidden your struggle up to now, one or more people will sense that something is going on and will want to help you. But to allow this, you need to be able to express your thoughts that are based on your emotions clearly. That is the King’s role. He knows how to clearly communicate what he’s feeling and to not fall for feeling wronged.

This card can also show you to ask for help from a therapist, a counselor, or a healer.

9 – Your Intention – Five of Wands

Druid Craft Tarot - 5 of Wands

On this card we see five boys mock fighting. They challenge each other in a way they can learn from. From this card, you could decide to follow the intention to challenge yourself or let yourself be challenged to perform at a higher level from now on.

The importance is too keep the challenge positive and prevent letting it become a real fight, where it becomes an ego-challenge. In an ego-challenge, you need to better than the other and in recovery, it is not about being better than anyone else. It is about being your best self.

It is like grown-ups who can see that a child’s play will end in anger and tears and will intervene before one of the children starts to cry. From your Higher Self, you need to start recognizing when your journey becomes ego-driven, and when you come from the heart. Your recovery journey is allowed to be fun, it does not have to end in anger and tears. Keep it light and playful.

10 – The Outcome – Princess of Cups

Druid Craft Tarot - Princess of Cups

As I have pulled a court card for this position, you need to look for a change in your identity that will be more defined. Look at this card! See how this Princess can enjoy the experiences she has. This asks for sensitivity to your dreams and hopes for your future.

It also means that you need to start defining your dreams. Decide that you do not need to stay in the mud of recovery where things are hard to change. If you look closely enough, you will understand that there is a lot to enjoy. Even when some certain behaviors or foods are not right for you anymore, this does not mean that you are not allowed to enjoy life and the things you *can* eat! Find joy in little things and rise above it by defining an aligned action you so often repeat until it is automatic behavior.

What also helps is to meditate or pray to connect with your inner child (or your guides) to know what is yours for the future.

Finally, for this Celtic Cross for Recovery

If you happen to come across this reading of the Celtic Cross for Recovery, I meant it for you to read it. While this reading is about food addiction, you do not need to be a food addict to understand the importance of it. Any person on a recovery journey will find something in this reading, as long as they are able to change food addiction to their substance.

If you found helpful things in this reading, it was there for you to find it. If you have questions about it, then know that I am there for you to answer them.

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A Letter To Food Addiction

Dear Food Addiction,

At a very early age, you taught me you were always there for me. While I did not know what that meant, I later learned that you were there at a few steps away. The moment I started to eat, I’d feel tension subside, and I would sink into a state in which I did not feel much anymore.

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