Conversation With My Future Self (a Tarot Reading)

I was scrolling through my collection of tarot spreads on my Pinterest Boards when I found a spread for a conversation with my Future Self. You can find it in the board Spreads Future in the Tarot & Oracle Spreads board. You can find over a thousand examples there.
I can’t give credit for this spread because Pinterest blocked the source. Luckily they didn’t block the image because I did a great reading with it. It got up close and personal.

For this reading, I wanted to know more about the future I’m heading toward.

The cards I pulled

I pulled the following cards in this reading:

1. My Present Self – King of Swords
2. My Future Self will thank me for […] – Three of Swords
3. My Future Self tells me to focus on […] – Eight of Swords
4. My Future Self tells me to stop […] – Ace of Cups
5. Advice from my Future Self – Two of Swords

The first thing I see is that most of the cards come from the suit of Swords. It shows how I am in my head a lot and that there is a lot of mental activity (check!). My mind is filled with thoughts and ideas. Nothing new there!

1.     My Present Self – King of Swords

“Clarity of vision is the key to achieving your objective.” – Tom Steyer.

The King of Swords is a card of pure logic. I believe that is what I need right now, but it is also my default setting as a thinker with deep feelings underneath. I am doing all kinds of new things and planning for things in the future that are exciting. I’m also paying attention because this may be the first time for many things, but I will repeat them at some point, making many notes and checklists for future book releases.

The King of Swords went through the whole process from the initial idea to the mental clarity of how I am doing these things. It seems I spent forever on this process. The doubts, the disappointments, and the pain I endured along the way. But at some point, while becoming more aligned in taking action, I became more explicit about the details.

The King of Swords looks at me straight. His sword sticks up in the air like an antenna for good ideas. He seems to express, “Don’t mess with me. I am serious now!” He is the epitome of mental alignment and decisiveness, precisely how I feel now.

2.    My Future Self thanks me for this – Three of Swords

“You leave old habits behind by starting with the thought “I release the need for this in my life.” – Napoleon Hill

My Future Self thanks me for my work to release the pain and change my mindset to optimism. It was quite the journey where I stacked failure onto failure. It was intense. If I did not fail in the results, I felt like a failure because I was not doing what I needed to do. What that thing was, I had no clue.

The Akashic Records Reading in 2020 changed it all. Within six months, I decided to translate an old book because I needed something to take my mind off the whole covid pandemic and a disappointing job I had accepted right before the pandemic started. I felt lost and heartbroken.

The experience turned out to be the rock bottom I needed to push up from to get to fresh air. It is the experience my Future Self thanks me for because I needed that challenge to break free from limiting thoughts and sabotaging habits. Also, starting treatment for an eating disorder made a considerable change. It freed up a lot of mental space that I could use for other things. It has resulted in a lot of quiet and calm in my mind.

3.     My Future Self tells me to focus on […] – Eight of Swords

“Positive thinking will let you do everything better than negative thinking will.” – Zig Ziglar

My Future Self tells me to focus on reversing limiting beliefs. Especially my inner critic can play a rather negative role if I do not pay attention. It used to have a lot of influence on my being, but the noise has truly died down since the program. You cannot imagine how good it feels to experience silence in your mind. If you struggle with emotional eating or restricting food, please get treatment; it is worth it!

Anyway…

Seeing the lady on the card wearing a blindfold, I see how conscious I need to be of that part of myself. The thing with negative beliefs is that you think you are stuck (see the bound hands), but you need to decide if you are really. Are you bound or holding your hands behind your back to prevent yourself from doing things you do not want to do?

The Akashic Records Reading I gifted to myself was the act of removing the blindfold and seeing things super clearly. I always tell my clients: “Knowing your Divine Soul Blueprint does not mean that you also know how to do it or what you would want to do from this setup.” I needed time to make better choices and notice that they felt more joyful than ever. For two months, I took on the intention of Joy because I had lost the feeling! So I started by asking myself all the time: is this fun? Does this feel like joy? Every time I would get a No, I knew I had to make a change.

One of the things that came up immediately was the sucky job. I knew it was a hostile environment, and I had to leave as soon as possible. It still took six months to find a company where I am seen and appreciated, but I now have a fun and joyful job. They even accepted my ambition to write and publish my book in my development plan. How cool is that?!

4.    My Future Self tells me to stop […] – Ace of Cups

“Trust yourself. Create the kind of self you will be happy to live with all your life. Make the most of yourself by fanning the tiny, inner sparks of possibility into flames of achievement.” – Golda Meir

My Future Self tells me to stop going with the overflowing emotions that sometimes hit me. I must admit that they are much less prevalent these days; they did not add anything wise to the situation as they made me eat and then diet all the time. Uncontrolled, overflowing emotions kept my eating disorder alive.

Emotions are incredible; I would not want to do without them. But sometimes, I go too deep, and it crosses the line of being able to find the lesson in it. I sincerely hope to find a bright, happy, and aligned path with all the good actions over the last two years. I have denounced my dieting habits and finally see how they were the cause of a lot of insecurity, hurt, and pain.

As an air personality, I like to keep things controlled, precise, and logical. Words like self-love made me shudder (it still does a bit, but at least I can keep a straight face now when I hear it).

Subconsciously I knew I had more to give than the things I thought were important. The negative beliefs and the painful transition into joy opened my heart to the abundance I longed for. To have that, I need to make peace with the past, and my Failure Self, and embrace a better future.

As I saw this, I also noticed the lotus flowers on this card, and it reminded me of how this plant grows from the mud to the surface of the water (emotions) to float on it. It moves along with the emotions of the water. It stands for rebirth and strength. To rise above the mud needs a lot of faith in yourself. Even how sucky it was at some point, I always had faith that I could make it better. I now feel much more confident, and I am super grateful for that.

5.    Advice from my Future Self – Two of Swords

“Find a place inside where there is joy, and the joy will burn out the pain.” – Joseph Campbell.

My Future Self advises me to take the blindfold off and keep it off. She also tells me that my heart no longer needs protection. Logically, I did that, but it is also logical to change things because my whole being has changed. I left behind limiting and sabotaging behavior and replaced it with doing what I love best: writing about stuff that stirs my heart.

It is time to let go of the layer that protected me and helped me survive for so long. Now it is time to feed my sense of decision and seek a balance between intuition and logic. I don’t have to see the whole path ahead. All I need is to see the next step.

The more I look ahead, the more anxious I become. I only need to focus on the next small step by deciding on the direction. If that means creating one image for one of my social media channels, then that is it. But once one is finished, the next will pop up in my mind. This way, it becomes a string of pearls that guides me to a shiny future. It is also how I can keep embracing joy and fun because those feelings are found at that moment.

And that is what it is all about.