TAROT READING / CHANNELED MESSAGE, AKASHIC RECORDS
Overcoming Obstacles in My Book Release (Akashic Records Tarot Reading)
Overcoming obstacles in my author’s journey has become the most significant goal this year. I thought I only had to hit the Publish button, but it turned out to be so much more.
As I finished a journal, I read back a little bit. I saw a deep desire penned down on page 3: I want to publish my book in a way that acknowledges me as the author. I can just upload it and wait until someone notices it, but that would not honor me. It would be a loser way.
Harsh huh? I do not really believe I am a loser. I do believe that I tend to walk away from hard things and feel crappy about them afterward. I had the chance to release my books in a way that I could be proud of myself. Instead, I either unpublish them or publish them silently.
During my 2021 review, I noticed how I am done with that. I want to overcome obstacles that keep me from doing a “grown-up” book release. What I want is to live according to my Divine Soul Blueprint. While I have always been a writer (I started early at age six), I am not so good at what is mentioned in the third gift: Delivering in the spotlight. When it comes to this, I am weirdly split. I am very good at delivering speeches or teaching a class. I like doing that. And still, publishing a book or launching a program is where I find my obstacles. People are not allowed to know I am a writer of metaphysical books.
I have probably been burnt at the stakes as a witch for being good at something. Maybe even been burnt at the stakes. 😊 Just kidding! I do not know why this offers all kinds of obstacles and presenting something is not. But I want to overcome obstacles in my way.
But once I got the plan in mind that I wanted a grown-up book release, I felt anxious and stressed about the what, how, and when aspects of the goal. Not just a little bit, but heart palpitations all over the place. And still, I wanted it.
So I pulled out my Akashic Records Tarot deck to find some answers with a reading. I used a spread by Hermitsmirror: Telling Your Story, a spread for creating new narratives. I needed a new narrative and overcome obstacles in my journey for sure!
The Akashic Records Tarot is a bit of a different tarot deck. It is not a traditional deck (or I have not discovered it yet). I see it as a mix between an oracle deck and a tarot deck. It is divided into Major Arcana and Minor Arcana cards as a regular tarot deck. Still, it has fewer cards in the latter part (only ten per suit instead of fourteen). For this reading, I needed to use the booklet more than I am used to. This tarot deck is not a Rider-Waite clone which made it more of a learning curve to work with.
The spread and cards
- Description/Theme: Divine Physician (6)
- Major Past Struggle: 5 of Forces – Winter (Reversed)
- Pivotal Future Event: Archangel Michael
- Overriding Concern for overcoming obstacles: The Akashic Library (2)
- Emotional Undercurrent: 5 of Keys – Wishes Fulfilled
- Unspoken Fear: 2 of Roses – Winged Messengers (Reversed)
- Irrational passion: Will, Wisdom, and Mind (20) (Reversed)
- Driving Ambition: The Lookout (17)
- Primary Obstacle: 6 of Keys – Increscent Moon
- Description/Theme: Divine Physician (6)
Usually, I do not read with reversed cards, so when I saw three of them turn up, it gave me a feeling of dread, even though there was no reason. Reversed cards can be positive but also challenging.
This reading helped me see it was a good idea to try overcoming obstacles to become an author. I decided it is all in my Akashic Record. The talent comes from Divine Communication, the desire to intuitively work with tarot (and oracle) cards, and the talent to be in the limelight (even when this is reluctant because this is the scary part of it all) all come together in this book release project. It can be challenging, but at the same time, it is healing past struggles. Even though it is a shitload of work, it feels as if it comes along with ease. I need a lot of commitment to show up at my desk every time, but I am here almost every day.
What I learned recently is that anxiousness and excitement are two related feelings. They share a fast heartbeat and breathing. There is good and bad stress, but there is a beginning and ending to all stress. Even good stress can be too much sometimes.
It is essential to say yes to opportunities presented to you. It is the shortest route to fulfillment.
On the other side, I am scared that the possible success this reading indicates will disrupt my recently found peace. I am not willing to jeopardize that. But Spirit tells me to trust myself (and them). It will work out. Luckily my work situation has improved heaps. It will give me a solid financial foundation with the room to work on my other ambitions.
To make the second half of my life a better one, I need to find out. More journaling for me!
The only way to create that better life is by creating it consciously and feeling how it makes me feel. It is the artist’s way of making beautiful things.